I hate Apple

Yes, it's true. I HATE APPLE. i feel like an outsider to because i am surrounded by Mac Worshipers... its like an epidemic... just doing the usual friday night routine of fighting with itunes and my ipod to try to make it do what i want it to do. the only thing keeping me sane right now is the fact the i have dexter playing. you make everything better dexter. Im re-watching season three, which is a great season. and im at the really happy, awesome episode where Dexter becomes complete if you know what i am saying. :) looking forward to an awesome day tomorrow of hanging out with my niece Gianna and my sister. making some more blood splatter prints. ( i have an obsession yes, but i could be worse... couldnt i? oh well ) All play play tomorrow, but i have shitty tons of homework and tests and papers due on monday, so sunday is a day of schooling... when i am a rich and powerful scientist i am going to take down apple. i am serious. burn it down to the ground!!!!!!! then people will have jpods. and jtunes. it will be amazing. and it will be so easy to use and you wont have pull out hairs and yell very crude words at the computers and threaten to kill your ipod and your computer. and then hate yourself for owning a stupid ipod in the first place. i may be confusing myself with the whole world... but im pretty sure i am not alone in feeling this way. soon my brethren and .. ... sistern(?) there will be something better than ipod, i will be your savior from the monopoly that is apple!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Dexter

So my sister and I, who rock by the way, did something fricken awesome last week. Im not sure if you knew this but I, we, are just a little obsessed with Dexter. and so we decided that we wanted to make blood splatter paintings. :) yes that is correct folks, blood splatter painting. i made blood, with corn syrup, food coloring, and several other ingredients that i could never recreate in all my life, and it turned out so awesome!!!! and then we went outside and took paint brushes and made splatter!!! oh god it was amazing. so much fun!!! Ah, I love Dexter. SO Much!! Congrats Micheal on your Golden Globe Award. You so deserve it. on a related Micheal Hall note, just watched Gamer. Totally awesome movie with some A list actors and a really great plot, story line. Totally recommend it. so my sister and i are planning a Dexter party for when season five comes out, which is like forever away :( but ya, should be awesome. We are also doing a Twilight party for when New Moon comes out on DVD!!! :0 hell to the ya!!! Both are gonna be off the chizart!!

Falling or Failing....

If I had to pick either falling or failing, i can honestly say that i would rather fail than fall. and i can answer this because i have done both this past week.... so, my falling episode, this was the worst one yet, and that is saying something when you are talking about me. I trip over my own shadow, i trip if i think about tripping, even when stationary. So for this wonderful "trip" it begins with a simple chore of laundry. My grandmother's washer and dryer are located in the basement and there are a flight of stairs going down, a little landing, and then three more stairs off to the side you go down to get into the basement. I have gone up and down these stairs my whole 18 1/2 years of living and never had a problem. until the other day. I was carrying a huge basket of laundry and i got down to the little landing thing and turned to go down those last three stairs and just, ... forgot that there are THREE stairs there and just stepped off the first stair. i then Micheal Phelps-ed into the concrete floor scoring a perfect 10 for a lovely dive. And i got bonus points because at the bottom of the stairs is a rug, then 3inches of concrete and another rug, i landed on one knee right on the concrete! Pain i cannot describe to you. i landed so hard on my knee i split the skin. i started heaving and almost threw up, and just shaking. past crying pain, just lying there, not able to move, barely able to breathe and trying to hold off my grandpa's dog from jumping all over me, something i was not very capable to do... i would have hit my head hardcore if i had not dove head first into my clothes basket thank god. i almost died. so i mostly landed on my left knee, but the right one was not unscathed... so after five minutes of lying there i began to try to get up, which is not easy when u cant use your knees. so i get the laundry done and begin to try to hobble up the stairs and go to the bathroom and wash my bloody knees. and i cant let grandma know i fell, so i cant limp too bad... it was hell. and i still had to climb another flight of stairs to get to my room, then go back down to put clothes in ht dryer, go back up, and go back down to get them and go back up the two flights of stairs... just kill me now... so my legs, instantly bruised and swollen. terrible. i couldnt walk for three days. it was over a week age and my leg is getting worse, i am actually going to go to the doctor because i think i may have genuinely f-ed it up... i just recently did laundry and it happened like over a week ago... i was afraid to go down the stairs... i was getting really low on clothes... so ya, welcome to my life. im a gimp now... :(

There is Hope...

So it turns out that that Micheal is in remission. Thank God. They found it early and it is treatable. He was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s lymphoma. He is still planning on attending the Golden globes and will continue filming season 5 of Dexter. I dont know what I would do with out Dexter.... :( he is my hero, and hella sexy!!!! Hope you have a quick and speedy and smooth recovery with no reaccursions Micheal. Poor Jennifer :( they are so cute together... :( Damn Cancer!!!!!! I HATES YOU!!!!!

Hip-Hip Hooray!!!!!

So the most amazing thing happened today, I found out i did not epic fail my test yesterday. I actually recieved one of the highest grades in the class, a 40/50. a B, not bad. But, no one got an A, in fact hardly anyone even passes at all. So my teacher, who is officially my new favorite teacher ever, allowed us to redo the test. Using books, and notes. And you got the whole class period and then got to leave when when you were done. So now my grade is 49/50. I still missed one but big deal. I did awesome!! I also recieved full marks on the essay questions, which you were not allowed to change at all. So it all worked out great!! And I almost didn't even go to class today, and i am SO happy i did!! I dont feel very confident about the english paper I wrote last night but at least i got it done :) And now on a more sad note, ( I'm not sure of sadder is a word so i refrained from using it...) I found out today that Micheal C. Hall is battling cancer. He is the guy that plays Dexter in case you dont know. My sister texted me and i was driving, yes, i do drive and text quite often, dont judge my life... Anyways, i nearly crashed my car, becuase when I read that i screamed and my world started to crumble. Mr. Hall, please dont die, i hearts you too much!!! you are in all the thoughts and prayers of the Dexter following!!! :'(

Phailing is a part of life, but it still sucks.

Phailing sucks about as much as a Vietnamese prostitute; which is quite a bit in case you were wondering.... But none the less, there is something even greater on the suckage scale, and that is epic phailing! Which I did today. It was in my psychology class. well I'm sure you know how this story goes, didn't study for a test, wasn't prepared, and now my first grade for that class is going to be an F. Great way to start. I cant even complain really cuz like most problems in my life I cause them... Nothing to so but learn a lesson right... Right... In happier news, I have found new music that I love. The band is Say Anything, and the album is ...Is A Real Boy. they have several but this is the only one i have heard, and it is really great. And I got a new album from an old favorite, Bowling for Soup, Sorry For Partyin'. Both are really great. I highly recommend them. Last night while I was not studying for my test or writing my English paper I had one of those epiphanies that has left me forever changed. You will all be very happy to hear that I have decided what I want to do with my life, I am going to become either: a bloodstain pattern analysis, or a genetic engineer. I'm going to start with getting my B.S. (which I think is a hilarious title for a degree btw, hehe :] )in biology and then either move more toward a forensic science major with probably a minor in physics and become a spatter girl. Or get my doctorate in Biology and become a genetic engineer with the goal to work with trying to isolate causes and factors for genetically inherited diseases with the goal to eventually cure them. I like to aim high :) I'm pretty excited to a have a goal for life though. Lots of school, lots of loans, but it will all be worth it in 20 years. I don't want to be that person that everyone says had all sort of potential and Epic Phailed in life because they just didn't live up to their potential. So, you are reading the blog of a future scientist, don't you feel special :) Now, I must further my education right now by doing my English paper, which I put off writing just so I could do a blog entry for my sister who has been telling me to do another entry. This one, and all of them, are for you Sis. :) I really don't think I am that good of a writer and my professors would all agree... but oh well. It comes with practice right, maybe writing a blog will give me just that. Let's hope so.


<3 I would like to give a shout out here to my friend Luke, for being an awesome friend and believing in me when no one, not even myself did. Thanks Luke, I hearts you buddy!!!! <3

My life

This probably should have been my first post, but this will just be the first insight into how organized i am...
Be warned its a long one:)
I grew up in Spokane, Washington. In the Hide Away Mobile Home trailer park. But we all just called it hell. It was one of those stereotypical Ghetto, white trash trailer parks you see on TV and think, "oh my god, there are kids running around there!" That was home. All the friends i have now, are the same friends i met as a child... i fear change i guess. I have never had a problem meeting people at work or in class or anything, i am friendly enough i guess that people seem to generally like me, the problem is that i don't like people. So i have a group of people that i find tolerable and i have kept them. some have gone, and some have comeback, but its always been us, we are often spoken of as a group rather than single people. it is actually odd to go visit old teachers and hear them speak of you and your friends as a single entity. My friends are Megan, Ethan, and Andrew. Andrew's mom and my parents went to high school together, and then years later, we move into the same trailer park they live in. Its like Andrew and me we destined to be friends... oh boy. lucky me... With Andrew eventually came Ethan, but now Ethan is no longer my friend only by friendship of another friend, as so many people i know annoyingly are. Now Ethan is my friend, one of my best friends. And then Megan, there is truly nothing i can say that will properly describe Megan. She is my exact opposite, and she gives me gray hairs and drives me to drink. But I drive her when she is drunk. She is my best friend, and we have the same life, so we understand each other and that kind of bond, it doesn't break. That cliche, you never know what you have until its gone, well now that I don't see them every day, I am realizing how truly fond of them I was. 5 months ago due to some of those events of my life that left me forever changed, I moved, over the course of a few hours, to live my grandparents and start a new job. Well when that company failed in this bustling economy and laid me off, do I regret moving? No, I just wish they would all move down here with me. I am not completely alone here though. I have my sister, Morgan. My dear sister, whom I can thank for getting me my myspace page, facebook page, and even starting this lovely blog :) The things you do to appease family! Morgan is married to Jason and they graciously allow me to stay with them on some nights of the week to get out of Dayton, where I actually live, and stay in the town of Walla Walla. They have provided me with one fur-nephew named Vinny. And then my brother and his wife also live in Walla Walla. They are Justin and Annie and they have given a beautiful, amazing niece named Gianna who is 18 months old to spoil and love. I love being an Aunt. I like college, well more than high school anyways. And I really like Walla Walla. I had my own apartment for five minutes until 5 minutes after I got approved to move in I got laid off... So I live in tiny, quaint, Dayton in the upstairs of my grandparents house just waiting for the next thing that will leave me forever changed.